The last three weeks have been life changing, confusing, heart breaking, emotional, frustrating, exciting and filled with a million thoughts and memories.
3 weeks ago today I was on my way down to Sebring FL. to stay with my grandparents and help them get started in organizing and getting ready to move into a smaller place. Honestly I must confess I wasn’t so excited about going. I didn’t see being 3 weeks in FL at the top of my favorite most wanted list but in the end I knew that it was what I should do…and now, I can clearly see that my “sacrifice” was part of a greater plan cause during my questioning time God gave me an understanding heart and told me something that at the time I didn’t want to believe but now know He had prepared me for.
The first part of week 1 was slow and relaxing as I helped just do general cleaning and a bit of organizing, helping my Grandma go through old files, sitting out in the sun, taking picture around the missionary retirement village they lived in and just chillin’.
Then on Saturday, March 27, 2010 at around 10:45pm my Grandma was called home to her King and Savior. Suddenly. Unexpected…but then again that is what God had prepared me for. I know it may sound weird but you can ask a couple different people who I told the sense I had that this was going to happen. It was such a strange yet amazing feeling that God truly was there with us and I was so not alone during everything that took place that weekend and through out the next 2 weeks.
God’s grace was there.
will always be.
Its something I have continually to be reminded of. He will not take us through fire and trials without His hand holding us through it all.
and He was.
It was painfully hard watching my Grandpa go through it all though. Hard to see him grieving, getting confused cause sadly, his mind is going and he sometimes couldn’t remember what had just happened 5 mins. ago. It was heart wrenching but beautiful that he was holding Grandma when she died. He was quoting scripture and God blessed him with a very clear mind throughout that evening. He said he saw angels in the room with him.
‘Angels’ were everywhere. The support I got from all the staff, friends and nurses at the village, from my family and dear friends up here in Michigan….I couldn’t have made it through without God’s sustaining grace and all the prayers that were lifted up! Thank you all from the depth of my heart!
Yes it hasn’t been easy since then. 2 weeks have passed and 2 memorial/funeral services later we now have Grandpa living with us. Taking one day at a time is our motto. Each moment loving him and trying to make him feel a part of our family. Its hard for sure. A sacrifice for us all. A time of testing. A time to leave it all at Christ’s feet and trust Him each day.
One of the good things about all this is that my brother John was able to come home for the funeral last week. It was a short and bitter sweet visit but always so good to see him! :) Unfortunately my brother Josh wasn’t able to get away from his MP training. :(
These are some verses that lifted me up with hope that my Savior was holding me in His hand during these last 3 weeks.
My eyes are upon You, O God the LORD; in You I take refuge! Ps. 141:8
Psalm 61. God was and is my Rock. My Strong Tower. My Shelter.
As for me, I would seek God and to God I would commit my cause. Who does great things and unsearchable marvelous things with out number. He gives rain on the earth and sends water on the fields. He sets on high those who are lowly and those who mourn are lifted to safety! Job 5:8-11
You are my God and I will give thanks to You. You are my God; I will extol You! Oh give thanks to the Lord for He is good, for His steadfast love ENDURES FOREVER!!! Ps. 118:28-29
…Now to move on into this next page of life God has planned for me! Stay tuned! :)